Well, I'm writing now because I don't know what to do.

Ever get to a point when you're so...bored...that you find nothing can entertain you?

I've played every game I have to death, read almost every book on my shelf twice (or more), and even tried to sit down and draw. I didn't get far.

This leaves me with writing - my passion - which I only ever do when I feel in the mood to do it. Right now, I'm about as far from that mood as I could be.

I should explain that, as my most recent deviation shows, I'm seeing someone. But to be frank, that is a really poor way of describing our relationship. She is in a different country, and will be for the next 7 months...

I've never felt this kind of longing for someone before, and it scares me. I'm trying my hardest to focus at college, but anything which will take my mind off her for a few minutes takes precedence over work. Its not that I WANT to forget her, its just that every moment of remembering that she isn't with me is a moment of pain.

We've been talking on skype, sometimes for several hours at a time...but she went to a friend's house this weekend. A house with no internet.

I really want to be with her, and I can't stand this distance. Now not being able to ease it by calling her is literally driving me to distraction. (I now know where that phrase comes from)

I'm in the middle of a fast paced game, and still bored enough to write an alltogether too personal journal. I think I'll go sleep now...

*sigh*